* why? *


everyday in my life is filled with ups and d0wns..

is it h0w this sh0uld be?

0r would y0u rather a peaceful and stagnant 0ne?

i don't kn0w..d0n't wish t0 know..
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-this entry was written on the friday night after c0min` h0me fr0m the traumatizing day-

this m0rning, news br0ke 0ut..
0ur much-respected, liked, lo0ked-up-up0n and fav0urite mike tendered his resignati0n..
he hate me.. i knew it!!!! =(
*that was what i keep sayin` the wh0le m0rning t0 make him stay, th0ugh it didnt w0rk..*
s0 everyb0dy was suffering fr0m l0w-m0rale and depression.. 0k, n0t s0 extreme.. but definately restless..
helena g0t very tensed-up and agitated, rather unlike her usual self th0ugh..
despite 0f our c0ntinu0us pr0bing, mike refuse t0 tell us the real reas0n for leaving..
but m0re or less, we can understands why..
it's always when y0u know s0methin is c0ming t0 an end, then y0u will begin t0 treasure it, ALWAYS the case, NEVER will this change..
human d0es take things f0r granted, this is n0thing unusual..
but it's always unwillingly we accept the truth, the reality..
with mike's decision t0 leave, h0wever hard t0 accept, 0r i w0uld say, unwilling t0 accept, i kn0w the future r0le is g0in` t0 be harder and t0ugher..
whether m0re inv0lvment within the department 0r not is n0 l0nger the issue.. it's h0w happy y0u are within the res0urces..
seriously.. al0t of ppl lo0k up t0 him as a s0urce 0f ignition, a leader, a role-m0del..
but.... why....stupid mikey!!!

i g0t alot m0re to write 0n this.. al0t of th0ughts, al0t more feeeeel..
but w0rds just wouldnt all0w that, they g0t caught in between alphabets and sentences..
i wr0te a sentence, and delete the next..
n0thin` seemed t0 be c0rrect and en0ugh the bring 0ut the unacceptance.. whatever!! b0o0o~
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saturday, which was ytd..
i went tuitioning, as usual.
then g0 over to pick YL up f0r lunch and we spent the wh0le aftern0on walking ar0und, sitting ar0und, eating and drinking ar0und..
and... we spent quite al0t i think..
cl0se t0 a hundred each..
will n0t g0 into details,
but.... i really had l0tsa fun!!!! we t0ok pictures, even the ph0tomachine!!
which turns 0ut really nice =P

and driving at night is s0 fun!! =) alth0ugh yueling keep saying, "can d0n't speed anot?" *which i was 0nly g0in` at the m0st 90km/h..*
oohh yah!! and we watch "the pink panther"
it's such a 0h-s0-HILARIOUS show!!! and the m0st funny part was when YUeling c0uldnt st0p luffing and ended up c0vering her m0uth and shaking all 0ver.. which in turn made me laugh even harder!!! she's such an entertainer!!
hahaah.. and when we were having dinner earlier 0n at Terra, the bugis 0utlet..
there's this g0od-attitude, pr0mpt service waiter that serves us, i chance up0n his name tag and realise his name is - KA FEI.
then when i t0ld yueling b0ut it.. she purposely waited f0r the waiter t0 walk 0ver again and laugh 0ut s0 0BVIOUSLY that the waiter kn0w we were bitching ab0ut him!!!!!
then, again.. i g0t affected and laughed t0o, but 0nly politely and slightly giggling.. =x hahaha...
i kind-0f decided t0 have my tatt0 done-up f0r a significance 0f being 21yrs 0ld.. and bein` the super artistic yueling was my first ch0ice t0 design my tribal-name-inscripted tatt0o.. =) see it!!!


the heart-shaped is really nice AND meaningful!! first, it's my fav0urite shape, sec0nd, it's g0t my name in it!! *lo0k cl0sely* =)
it was s0 fun g0in` 0ut with yueling, alth0ugh s0metimes she can be irritating!! haha.. like walking s0 sl0wly....!!! and i g0t t0 turn ar0und t0 see where she is lia0.. bah~!!!

simin just called, we are g0in` jur0ngpt t0 watch 49DAYS.. by stephen fung and t.w.i.n.s.. sh0uld be v nice, c0z i like this c0mbinati0n.. =)

oh!! there's this thing w0rrying me - my birthday cake..
yanping t0ld me the cake plays a v imp0rtant part during the 21st birthday..
huh....... i didnt kn0w!!
i was intending t0 buy it fr0m prima-deli 0r s0me stupid neighb0urh0od la..
haha.. h0w???? then when i asked ar0und, i realise everyb0dy's 21st cakes are either ice-creams 0nes 0r really impressive 0nes.. what a stupid m0untain t0rtoise i am!!!
well, cant blame me.. i've g0t n0 experience, y0u know, this is my -FIRST- 21st bday!) hahaa.. *obvi0usly*

0k.. t0mmorr0w is an0ther brand new week!!!
let's pray hard things are g0in` better yet =)

p/s: Mikey, d0nt leave!
p/ss: thank y0u shanny and yanping f0r telling me the real meaning 0f bimb0 and bitch. =)

n0t a bitch n0r a bimb0
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