* bl0oo0o0ging *


my lappy is gettin 0ld..
y0u know this dreaded blue screen, that keeps saying s0me err0r in the hard disk 0ccurred and stuffs like that?
it's makin` me s0 irritated....
i c0uldnt even bl0g peacefully with0ut having the restart my lappy f0r its 0485753923855 times..!

s0 y0u pe0ple can imgaine, with all these pr0blems arising, h0w can i bl0g properly?!?!

0kay, s0 y0ur demand is my... whatever!
c0mmand 0r something..
alright!! bl0g!!!~

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as people are telling me fruitful and exciting their lifes are..
i am dreading over mine..
what could be worst?
8-5pm job..
7-9pm tuiti0n..
10pm Da chang jin~
*okay, that's not counted*
s0 practically, it's all mundane!
oh well, at least it's CYCLE-D..
You will not hear me say, oh well..
today i went s0 and s0's place f0r facial, and oh woah!!
you know what, the jacuzzi is s0 big that i l0st my towel in it~
and yesterday i flew t0 japan f0r this carnival and to0k the earliest flight t0 Italy again, f0r this sh0wcase 0ver at Rome..
oh yah right!!
*shakes wildly!!*

well.. but t0 basics..
was at tuitioning, then zara mentioned about loving my M0tor0la pink v3 s0 much that she could d0 anything t0 get it.. and that her wh0le class g0t it and blah blah..
and that i was s0 lucky that felicia b0ught it f0r me and stuffs you know..
anyway, at that instant, my f0ne rang..
and it was und0ubtly, felicia.....
haha.. then i t0ld her that she was being menti0ned, about this c0incidence..
she then c0mmented that n0wadays kids are way t0o sp0il than 0ur times..
imagine.. ch0c0late f0untain in her bedr0om, D&G teeshirt that c0st her mum $550 f0r just casual wear.. t0nnes 0f t0ys and latest gadgets..
ip0d, imac G4, whatever you can ever think 0f....
s0 yah.. then felicia was saying she needs rest and blah.. y0u know..
s0 i went 0n t0 zara and her n0nsense, as usual..

s0 to make it quick..

at night, while watching da-chang-jin..
i g0t a call..
*chatting in process*

in the end, after the phonecall..
i was w0ndering what the hell was the c0nversation ab0ut and the meaning i could derived fr0m it...

"d0 u think 0ne day s0mething will c0me back t0 you?"
"d0 u think you will still cherish it when it c0mes back to you, even though you d0nt need it anymore.."

did i lost s0mething?
a ph0ne? yah.. used t0 dr0p things quite al0t..

but this qns realli made me think....
and you could g0 think bout it t0o..

but f0r me... i have alot 0f uncertainties..
gimme s0me scenari0s maybe..
like..
will i want a watch that i lost s0me days back..
"yes!!" it brings back mem0ries..
will i want a ph0t0 that was to0k quite s0me times back..
"yes!!" it reminds me 0f the old days..
will i want a person back...
"yes!!" it brings back b0th mem0ries and the old times..
but pe0ple might ask..
what if it's all unhappy past and s0rrows that were left behind?
all i can say is..
till n0w, it had n0t happened as yet..
in future?
think bout it later..

that's a very real and straight-forward me..
i wont think of the future in terms of the uncertains..
0f course it didnt mean that i d0nt have a goal t0 achieve 0r something,
but i always believes everything had been planned for you ahead..
if n0t, you wouldnt been b0rn this way...
n0t every0ne was b0rn with health and wealth, with eyes and n0se..
s0 if anyone out there hasnt g0t the mentioned, you wouldnt shakes your head but n0ds in agreement with me..

so the conclusion f0r this would be....
whatever happens, when it's meant t0 be yours...
n0 matter h0w long it takes..
it'll still be..
get it, ha0y0ng?
*顺便也把你拉下水*

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as f0r th0se wh0m are waitin f0r birthday part2...
i think... i'd rather n0t..
i lo0k s0 bad in the pictures
*alth0ugh in real....well...*
ok!!!!
s0 yah..
where was i...........

this m0rning while i dr0ve t0 this "m0nthly place" at bukit timah,
*s0me of you might kn0w =X*
was playing JJ's s0ng.. and felt really... 舒服..
i l0ve his 声线..
it made the driving seems m0re easier and happier =)

当黑夜来领的时候 人不禁也开始感性了起来
想得越多 孤单越靠近
看起来天天笑脸迎人的我 真得就那么开心吗
谁比我自己更理解我
也或许 我是真正不了解我的人
有些时候 往往会想要隐藏什么
心理的内心世界 永远不会有任何的改善

喜欢一个人的快乐 何尝变得那么难
拥有一个人的拥护 而更是遥不可即
我的人生梦想很简单 和别的女生一样
想要一个快乐人生 要一个一起分享的他

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i hate it when i became crazy over my own naration with chinese 'characters'
i simply couldnt stop!!!!
there's simply t0o much things that overwhelmed me in this simplified yet str0ng language....
t0 some of us, language is just a form of communication..
but t0 the rest 0f us, it's m0re than simply w0rds..
just like writers, reporters..
they made us g0 int0 their st0ries by just a page 0f plain text..
script writers, directors..
they br0ught us int0 their made-up world with texts and acti0ns..
0f course, additional feelings if you have t0..

ok, it's bull-shit if you couldnt 'link-up' with my obsession with 'WORDS'..
right..

was thinkin 0f a break-thru, alth0ugh at a tender age 0f 21,
*did i just said i was 21?..crap..*
where 0ne just stepped int0 the real w0rld, where 0ne has g0t n0 other abilities that is called, 'their-own'..
n0thin` you called '0wn-space'..
n0t your '0wn-world'..
y0u see my p0int??
s0mehow realised, n0thin in this w0rld belonged t0 me!!
abs0lutely N0THING, if you need me t0 emphasize..

d0n't try t0 argue with me and said y0u paid f0r your cl0thes and shoes!
i am talking ab0ut 心灵的充实 与真实的拥有..
if y0u are married happily with kids and plenty 0f happiness in a place called 'y0ur home'.. i sincerely felt happy f0r you...

我任然在寻找一个属于我的东西...
那样东西在你哪里吗？
你找到了吗？
你拥有着别人的东西吗？


penniless..
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