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you have heard of how sweet relationships can be,
how romantic it can become..
but what about the downside?
i am not sure if i am all set to handle them.

quarrels?
damn! i don't quarrel la..
you see, from all my previous tweeny mweeny relationships that hardly lasted as long as i can remember..
we never quarrelled la..

but i sure think that those won't even amount up to RELATIONSHIPs.
coz i am not committed.
and so are they.
or at least, i don't feel involved.
i know how confusing or ironic it may sound to you.
but let me tell you this..
i don't know how to handle a real one.
seriously!

this is giving me cold feets already.

as for him, he's out from a 5 years relationship la.
so i can already imagine the things that he may expect,
the things which caused him memories and grieve.
whereas i am all pure and clean!
hahaha.. only memories of Chris probably remains..
but we weren't even together, so nothin to that again.

and i really must say that i expects alot.
and that is already happening before anything are said.
expectations causes alot of injuries and pain.
when i expect and don't get it, i will question myself and
this is very unhealthy. :(

but how to not expect?
i can't do it.
and i believe i am rather possessive.
i am insecured, over-sensitive and paranoid!
ok, i am dead.


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