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THIS POST WAS WRITTEN 3 DAYS B4 I FLY.
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Flying with him in another couple of days..
To be exact, 3 days..

Seriously don’t know what to expect and, of course..
What not to expect.

Things never ever turned out the way I wanted, since young..
I felt that my life isn’t the way I wanted it to be.
But it never got too badly out of hand either.
At least, I completed a whole stretch of education scheme that all kids must go through.
A bit more.

But because I always felt that we have to path our road ourselves,
So whenever I tried to path out mine,
It turned out not.
This gives me lots of disappointment.
And they are not easily handled, sometimes.

But I haven’t given up, so this trip is going to be my final shot.
If I failed to pursue my so-called happiness, for the moment.
Then I am going to let the chance by-pass me.
And to make believe that, probably I am just not destined to have him.
Some lucky female does. But not me.

You all know me, typical Pisces.

I carefully planned out what to say, what not to say.
Although the end results were usually not what I thought would be.
For example, I would plan to say
“I think I kind of liked you”

And the worst thing from him could be
“Uh…ok..”

So, people…tell me..
How should I react to the “Uh..ok” scenario!??
The typical me is going to shoot with a
“Ok your head la!”

But I know, it’s not going to lead me anywhere!
I just can’t help it!!
I just can’t say anything more to a “your head”.

I always says “Your head!”
I don’t know why.
“Your head, Your head..”
That’s me lor!

And now, pretending that he didn’t say
“Uh.. ok”

Instead, it was merely a stare, or an unbelievable look from him.
(Which I think is rarely possible, because probably the whole world already knew that I liked him, and he must have been a retarded idiot if he is still not aware!)

Ahhhhh!!
This is getting on my nerves!
Just by thinking alone is enough to get my all worked-up!
Imagine if I have to face it.

I haven’t really told a person I like him face-to-face.
And I seriously don’t know if I should.
A friendship (a really close one) is at stake.
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I can’t help but shivers at the thought of two awkward faces in the morning if we happened to bump into each other in the office!
Which we WILL BUMP INTO!
Not like the office is as big as Vivocity!
(Which I have already bumped into friends there)
That’s why I am still in a dilemma
Still in it.



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