* 25052007 *

sorry for the lack of entries.
although dating is eating up alot of my time,
but the main thing here is the aftermath of dating..
arguements, confrontations and discussions..
we haven't really go too indepth with these however.
we merely had talks and surface discussions.
but they are enough to set me thinking and ponder for the rest of the day.
sure is!

like my msn "nick" - why can't being tgt be as simple as being tgt.
i am serious with this... this is so tiring, emotionally is.

that day, our major topic for the day is this...
with him giving out a loud sigh captured my immediate attention,
so i asked him what's wrong, at first, he refused to tell..
after some nudging, he finally approaches the opening..
"so we've been tgt for quite a while, how do u think we are doing"
this came as a shock, i haven't been really doing too much homework to be able to catch last minute tests!
but as a matter of factly, i said, " 就觉得自己很开心..."
but this doesn't seemed to be enough for him, he asked again,
" 就开心而以吗？"
男人的心好难琢磨哦...

so i said, " 就我也没有后悔 "
and finally he replied, " 我也没有后悔 "

But he did add on to say that, people has been telling him it's fortunate to be loved,
but he felt that being 幸福 doesnt mean being happy in his case.. which i can understand..
cos for all my previous relationships, i didn't really find myself liking them as much...
so 幸福 doesnt means happy, which is true.

so anyway, he also find our love unbalanced.
this is quite bad..
he thinks that he's unable to return whatever affection and attention i give him.
it's like a 70% vs 30% kind-of-thing.

if one day, we were to really break-up, at least he has given me ample time for preparation to get myself in the mood.
at least, i will not be as hurt.
well, that was what he thought...
but i did tell him, the impact is still there, and that will not minimise.

haiya, tiring tiring!
so anyway, i just listened attentively, and responded..
and at the end of the conversation,
i blurted out, " as long as you think you have tried, and u did really tried.. then i should be fine. "

he again said, "but, i want you to know that i've been thinking about this issue, i want you to be aware of how i am feeling.
i am trying to find out as soon as i can if we are really meant to be for each other, so that i wont waste any of your time.
i am a guy, so i am fine.. but i didn't wanna drag you along.."
*what a responsible man hur! *

at this point, you might be thinking, " so you 2 broke up? "
no, not so soon..
we are still trying...

and today, is only our 2nd month being tgt.
we are always running ahead of time,
only 2months...
and we are talking like, it's been 2-years.


its our 2mths anni.

*** sHiiy Un` QUee niE-joj 0 *** as at 11:58 AM