* grumpy-ness! *

We used to sms one another during office hour.
lunch, dinner, teabreaks..
but now, we tried so hard..
well, maybe me only, tried so hard to not msg him during office hour to adhere to his "dating rules" about keeping work to work.
yes, mentally u can keep putting that effort in to remind yourself, however.. msging impromtuly to him is unpredictable.
i just so much wanna get attention from him.
To me, (alright, this is weird coming from me) he's important now. Already.

and i finally ruled down all the possibilities to one major root - we work in the SAME company.

but many might think that, why? what kind of a danger signals can it post if both parties are willing to commit.
well, exactly what i thought initially.
one most powerful ignition that slipped through our minds is the power of words.
gossips spreads like wild fire!

All the more bcos he's one of the highly speculatible person in the company, (just like paris hilton and her imprisonment, highly spectacular)
people almost wanted to know everything about him. although that's not possible, so they keep on asking..
and pests are intolerable! and they breed like mosquitoes la!

to me, i am fine. you know, but i didnt' understand why and how it can be such a nuisance to him.
but time washes the curiosity, we went through.

now, we are facing another even bigger threat.
crossing the line of personal space..
okay, this is not simple.
how is each person's personal space being calculated?

he thinks that i am crossing over his.
whereas i keep feeling that he's not even coming near to mine.
he simply don't give a damn about the "where", "who", "when", no limitations at all. TOTAL FREEDOM!
say if i tell him i am having dinner with "friends" he wont, definately WILL NOT ask who "friends" are...
and he doesn't care if i did not msg him at all the whole day.. and i begin to ask myself, ARE WE DATING?

As for me, using the simple example as above in this scenario.
"Friends" to me is not acceptable.
i need to know the precise details. sorry but true.
"where", "who", "when", i just need to know them.
i belief all girlfriends should know at least where their bfs are, and doing what.
that's the bottomline. Isnt' it?

so at the end of the day, i felt crappy knowing too little.
and he felt crappy being asked too much.
where is the moderation?

im lo0king4ward to genting!
*** sHiiy Un` QUee niE-joj 0 *** as at 2:07 PM