* evil thoughts.. *

i m walking on sunshine~
wooohuuu.. i am walking on sunshine~

he bought me my top favourite scent of this season - L'Occitane The Vert EDT for christmas...

back in dating period...
we were walking along takashimaya when i suddenly zoomed into L'Occitane when this scent caught my attention.. i walked closer and tested out all the eye-catching parfums collection..
he was there with me.. with his sensitive nose, we finally came into a common conclusion that this is the scent i should have!
he thought it was refreshing and captivating..
i thought it was unique and light..
but the price was steep..

20ml at $40
50ml at $70
100ml at $129..

sigh! so ex!!

but but but!!!!!
on the 26th Dec, i received this pressie on my desk!!
(He always leave it there and msg me about it.)
i didnt expect pressies from him, so i was quite shock!
then when i pulled out my drawer, i almost cried~
so nice of him!!!!
and the thing is that, it is exactly the same scent we used to go gaga about..
aiya!!! i cannot narrate how excited and touched i was that moment..
i spritz on a couple of times on my wrist and memories overflowed in me!!!
*huge smile!~*









This morning, he asked me about the present, he asked if i liked it.
I almost went hysterical.
I then thanked him profusely and he was proud that he remembered.



All of a sudden..

Him : "she got angry when i bought you this.."
Me : "How come?"
Him : "She didn't expect me to be so confident with this purchase.."
Me : " huh? "
Him : " we were walking around in the store, and she was giving suggestions, but i knew they were not right, until i picked this up, smell it, and immediately knew that was it! "
Me : * glee *



P/S: He held her hands and bought me a gift :) * should i be jealous or happy?*



Ironic - reality.
*** sHiiy Un` QUee niE-joj 0 *** as at 11:44 PM

* 14122007 *

post-date:
The 2007 Annual D&D @ Hilton Hotel.


the beautiful pre-dinner cocktail reception was by the pool
*picture taken obviously before crowd coming in.*



my Logistics team.






our pretty QC girls..

I seriously had very few pictures taken, cos i was busy zooming around coordinating the whole show that night.
but, gladly, it was a huge success! :)
and most importantly, people had fun!

Looking forward to the next D&D~

5 more days to New Year!
*** sHiiy Un` QUee niE-joj 0 *** as at 9:27 PM

* after so long *

now its time, to finally let it go..
cos its SO OVER..


we had such a long talk that i thought was the longest ever since we broke off.

we went through our memories, we talked about our relationship before and after being together.
we smiled with shyness when we think back about our ambiguous and dating memories..

we talked about the emotions that went through us when we were together, we talked about the things that we were concerned about when we were together, we talked about the things that we neglected of each other when we were together..

and i wonder... why we are talking about it only now..
but its good in a sense that afterall, it was being talked about...
i am glad that we are sisters now!
so close... so so close...

to an extend that we opened our heart out to each other's fear and current emotions..

and there are things that i was so touched to know.. especially when it came out from his mouth..
many a times in our relationship, i thought i was always the one giving in, always the one loving him more, and always the one whom suffered the most..
but today, he told me things that i would never expect from him..
Anyone could have done that, but him.
so pleasantly, i was over-the-top surprised. (plus hurt, cos i realised i lost it anyway.)
1. he said that he knew what type of a girlfriend i was going to be -; one that gets jealous over the slightest things - so he turned down all invitations to go clubbing and dinner-ing with colleagues and even mutual girlfriends. (i had to agree cos his time is mostly being with me.)
2. he knew that there are things which i hated so much that he avoided doing them -; which he didn't wanna go more in depth at all.
3. he put me first in his list whenever there's something which he had to consider the consequences. (for this, i am seriously 感动. so much so that i had to look away from him.)
4. he knew what i was thinking most of the time. (for example, instead of the usual me keeping very quiet when serious-ness is in the air, i laughed, from here, he sensed that something's amiss.)
5. (to continue from point4.) but on the other hand he knows me well enough to know that even by telling me all these, he can still be very sure of himself that i will not do anything silly after his "confessions".
6. (to continue again from point4.) he immediately gave me a pat to assure me things are fine.
7. he told me that i am a 会粘人的女朋友。(muuuaahahaha! i am lor, i don't deny)
8. he called us sisters! (我们是姐妹！)

there's a lot more which i can't really recall, cos they are all ours. memories.

i am travelling with him again next year, this time round to Bangkok.
and when i told him that being friends again doesnt mean he can shrink his resposibilities of carrying my luggages, he immediately shot me a glaring eye!
in confusion as if this didn't occur to him at all..

but 我也不是省油的灯.. so i changed topic and told him, "this time round, we will be changing status again when we are there...
back in 2006, we were in bintan as colleagues.
then early 2007, we were in bangkok as "ambiguous going-to-date" couple..
middle of 2007, we were once again in bintan as couples..
in july 2007, we were in genting as "just broken up" couples..
finally in oct 2007, we were in krabi as "confusion state of mind" colleagues..

there, in jan 2008, we will be in bangkok again... now as SISTERS!"

this is hysterical la. both of us..
*huge sigh.*

he was quite amazed at the number of times we went overseas together.
seriously speaking.
i am too.

but not until he shot me with a....
"this is going to be our last trip..."

*blank.*

i don't know what that meant, and i am not interested to know.
lines doesn't have to be drawn so clearly, isn't it?

i knew the reason behind it.
and this reason sucks. for me...
it hurts too.
making me very imbalanced.
he tried to calm me down by giving me alot of assurance..
but that doesnt help at all..


it matters to me.
it still did.

sisters....for now? or forever?

Labels: being here and there.

*** sHiiy Un` QUee niE-joj 0 *** as at 8:18 PM

* 12122007 *


好怀念，好怀念。。
不知不觉，一年又过去了。。
距离我上一次踏在台北的土地也有一年的时间。。

我想念台北的一切。。
食物，朋友，风景，烟花，红色小绵羊，交通，来来往往的车辆，捷运， 101， 新光三月，西门町，饶河夜市，景美蛋饼，全家，好乐迪，唰唰锅。
太多了！
最后啊，最最最最最想念的还是他。

近来，和他的联络减少了。
彼此能够聊天的时间也仿佛归零。

也因为互相的忙碌，各自有的问题和扎物得处理。。。
所以感觉上已经没那么熟络。。。
这种感觉，让我非常的讨厌！
不要让我有这样的感觉！
千万不要！
因为我经常会有一股冲动，什么也不理，登了机，5小时候抵达桃园机场！
打一通电话给你。。吓死你！
每当你这样。。。。我就想不顾一切。。

现在变得很不了解你的生活习惯与起居。。
变得自己好像不曾认识这样的你。。
变得好不习惯，好不自在。。

你还是你吗？
你不要变哦。

因为我还是我。


但是啊。。至少你后来似乎终于转了过来。。
我看到你给我的留言。。
非常的窝心。。

所以，我想说。。。
明年见！

:)
*** sHiiy Un` QUee niE-joj 0 *** as at 9:52 PM

* Kelong the 2nd time. :) *

still having a hangover from last night's craziness!
i slept the moment i got home in the afternoon at 2pm till 7pm!
but i seemed to be unable to shake off that splitting heavy heahache..
what a bad aftermath~

i m not sure the total no. of sponsored barcadi, sherine's cognac, our vodka and qii's gin i had..
but sure enough to seriously knock me out for the first time in 22 years!
(ok, maybe 4 years! 22 - 18 = 4 [hahah!])

was sober in a sense that i know who i was with, what i said, the songs i sang..
but drunk in a sense that walking straight is impossible and i can't stop drinking!

urrgh! at 2am, i was gone.

****************************************************************************

But this is not bad.
Though definately not the hangover part today.

but being drunk definately made u do things you usually wont.

and ya, Qi was so high and drunk himself too.
but he had NO HANGOVER at all..
so unfair!

and there's work tomorrow!~
hais..

being here and there.
*** sHiiy Un` QUee niE-joj 0 *** as at 10:33 PM